first I'm Sorry... I didn't upload any drawings since the beginning of September... ;_;
that's why I uploaded that little simple animation :3
uhm, i wanted to get rid of that old journal xD.
You don't have to read it it's not important, I got bored and I'm having a writing/talk flash xD .
maybe just read the underlined stuff that are questions would help, thx
I wanted to upload more because I remembered my "stupid" year goal... I almost forgot... "50 watchers till end of the year"... need 14 more... but don't think I will make that in time OTL
one month ago I was really optimistic that I will make it... I gave my best in drawing a Fanart of DeadMaster/BlackRockShoter
drawing a fanart I thought that would be the best way to get enough attention
...but I was trying too hard... I normal draw for 4-10 hours. I speed up after 3-6 hours and then finish it because I get bored or have new ideas... I promised myself not to be lazy this time!!! I know I could be much better if I would just do my best
but now after... 30+ hours...I'm still not done...;_; and I just can't see it anymore OTL
and it's far away from being finished. I made too many details . The background the hair the weapons EVERYTHING ;_;
and I made the mistake that I showed it some people and got compliments... a lot of compliments to many and now my mind says "why finish it? You got compliments. There is no reason anymore"
Stupid mind =3= *kicks mind*
but I still hope I can find some motivation in finishing it!! And maybe get some watchers for that fff
I really feel stupid in wanting more watchers only because of that year goal but it's important to me to make one goal come true
Does someone know a way I could make it in time?? (btw someone answered me with "make nude pictures ." NO! I WILL NOT TO THAT! >__< don't suggest that._.')
that was only one reason why I'm not active
I have ideas but I can't draw them
that Fanart I'm surprised that I managed 30hours that's a wonder I had the art block before that
now I'm already happy if I can manage drawing some quick sketches but clean lines or color are impossible
and when I have some motivation I'm too tired and my hands are shaking OTL.
ffff that sucks <.<
And I don't know why I don't have motivation I have time the whole day and night! It's not stress, don't have any reason.
Gfdsrgew . I should stop writing about this stuff =/
Oh before I forget! I need some help!
As soon as I'm out of this artblock, I was thinking of opening commissions!
Maybe full body fanart/Oc commission and pencil sketches commission (example: [link] and[link] is that okay?
Do you think somebody would buy my art? And when yes what price?
I really have no idea help please!
And how does paypal work? I have an acc But never used it before
One last small thing
about Deviant ID picture of me? or a drawing?
Does somebody have an idea what i could use?
I know my English is sometimes hard to understand oO
sorry for wasting your time =3=
Thank you very much for reading